Apparently, it’s official.
Pastor Zachery Tims autopsy report confirms a mixture of cocaine and heroine in the system and declared his death as accidental.
According to Wikipedia “cocaine acts as a stimulant, whereas heroin/morphine acts as a depressant. Co-administration is meant to provide an intense rush of euphoria with a high that is supposed to combine the effects of both drugs, while hoping to reduce the negative effects, such as anxiety, hypertension, palpitations and other common side effects of stimulants and sedation/drowsiness from the depressant.”
This is commonly called “speedball or powerballing.”
This definition is in no way connected to the autopsy report detailing the cause of death regarding Pastor Zachery Tims but it serves as a common definition or depiction of what speedball and power balling is all about.
Where does this leave us?
It leaves us in the place where we last left this.
As Pastor DL Foster of GCMWatch shared on a FB comment, we kind of knew already.
Read this article from the Christian Post and you will see that while we understand the family is trying desperately to protect a family member, something worse has happened. No one seen this coming. However, from sources inside New Destiny, unsavory people would be seen with Pastor Tims and he was subsequently warned about them.
Apparently for a season, he did adhere to this admonishment but when you are dealing with drugs, you have your spots. With “global reach” you know where every spot is when you go to minister.
Drugs, alcohol, and sex. You know where to get a hit in each instance.
When you have people around you that can’t see the obvious signs of drug use, sexual immorality, and other non normal occurrences in people, things like this will happen.
It goes to show you that even pastors are vulnerable to be taken by the devil.
There is no doubt that before his untimely death, people were praying. Praying that the pastor would not go to places that would destroy. That God would remove people that shouldn’t be in the pastor’s life. That holiness would be his or her pursuit. How could this happen? Why did God let this happen?
God didn’t let this happen. When a man chooses to pursue a path in his recent or distant past, the will of man is to blame because decisions determines destiny. The choice a person makes will take them where they’ve intended to go.
Pastors, for the most part, are on “auto pilot.”
We know how to be spiritual at the right moment without alluding to the hidden darkness that is apparent or not. We know how to live in the shadows while in the spot light. We know how to turn on the “anointing” and leave you mesmerized that nothing is really going in a sinister fashion in our lives. We know how to go into a meeting and preach people to the rafters and live in the dungeon.
We know how to walk in bondage and act hypocritically as free indeed. We slip off the silver bracelets before we preach and return to these handcuffs when we’re done.
We know how to wear our suits with prison clothes underneath.
We know how to praise God and party at night.
In plain view, we know how to act godly while being filled with demonic thoughts.
We know how to raise our hands and use our hands to touch a woman other than our wives, or masturbate.
With our eyes on God, we know how to sneak a peek to lustfully look at a man or woman, or both.
The shadow lives of preachers is more pronounced than one thinks because we all know what to do in every situation. We know how to look healed while deeply hurt. We know when to smile and mask the frown in our aching hearts. We know how to make it look like we have it all together, spin every plate in the room, but in us they crash when we get away from the pulpit.
These things may not be true for the late Dr. Tims. But underneath all of our showmanship, we are humans that love sin more than we love God. While we try to live holy, sin is present with us. While we try to teach people not to fall into the traps of sin, we fall in them ourselves. We want to look people in the eye and persuade them that we are on the mountain top.
Yet, we are really living in the valley of sin and death.
This is not true for every preacher. There are those that came from the grips of death and are living for the Lord. Their living matches their preaching. There are preachers that have found a way to defeat the demons within his or her flesh. Yes, there are those that are on top of their game after living defeated lives as a preacher. They’ve finally put it all together to avoid hypocrisy so that the gospel would not be accused of being a false gospel, promising deliverance, but coming up short.
The lesson learned is to keep your pastor in prayer. When you get that hint that something is not right about your pastor, pray even more intensely. Get a prayer group going to pray that any thing that isn’t right would be exposed. That the demons on assignment would be disrupted and annulled. That God would send friends to the pastor that would speak into his or her life. That God would spare the congregation of another needless death of a man or woman of God.
Not to pray and act is negligence of the highest order.
This issue will not rest, but it brings a sense of at least knowing definitively the way demons attack and sadly, sometimes become successful in destroying men and women of God.