In The Mind Of A Perverted Pastor

images-9Many things do go on in the mind of a perverted pastor, but everything has a beginning point. A perverted pastor didn’t arrive there overnight. Most of the time, he or she got there in small steps. Little by little, they push the envelope to see how much they could get away with something until correction or judgment falls.

Little by little, they become more brazen and daring.

Some of us remember that as little kids, we would do mischievous things. Some of us would do so in front of our parents to see how far we could go until they would put a stop to it. Many of the things that were done in front of our parents when we were or weren’t corrected, set the ground work for what we do today.

Years ago, I wasn’t paying attention to the things of the Lord. I assumed that after service, I could go back to business as usual. I thoroughly abused the entire first chapter of 1 John and John 2:1. Forget about Romans chapter 6 and 1 John chapter 3. I would be holy one moment (form of godliness), unholy the next (complete godlessness).

I would abstain from porn and masturbation just for service. But after service was over, it’s back to the sins of the flesh.

God would warn me in subtle ways but I would ignore Him and the warnings He sent. However, the warnings became more intense because as a child, I tried the patience of my Father. I knew that sooner or later, the Father would have had enough.

It was a matter of time.

You have to understand that in this life, we are all running out of time.

The Father has eternal patience that works in time to preserve us from judgment. Judgment falls when we ignore the warnings.

For instance, the Corinthians abused the Lord’s Supper. This service was for the commemoration of the Lord’s death until He comes. Yet, it was abused. The judgment of God fell on them and Paul had to warn them (see 1 Corinthians 11:27-32).

How were they judged?

Some became weak in their bodies. Some got sick in their bodies. Some even died.

If you’ve noticed why you are suffering sickness and disease or you are weak in your body, it could be possible that you are assuming that you could get away with watching porn and masturbating.

This is where taking communion can curse you.

Now just in case you deliberately refuse to take communion to avoid the penalty, it doesn’t mean that you are off the hook.

The purpose of commemorating the death of Jesus is to reflect on the fact that Jesus died as our Passover Lamb for our sins. Symbolically eating His flesh and drinking His blood is recognizing and honoring the Lord. This high price was paid to free us from sin.

This is the whole purpose of the New Covenant in His blood.

That we are free from sin.

If you do not believe that sin brings forth death through sickness and disease, keep going.

According to this Scripture, it will eventually catch up to you.

In another incident, the lame man at the pool of Bethesda in John chapter 5, after Jesus healed him, Jesus told him to “Go and sin no more, lest a worse thing come upon you.” 

This is a clear indication that sin opened up the door for the lame man to get sick in the first place. If after being healed he persist and insist on committing sin, Jesus said, a worse thing will come upon him. The first time the lame man sinned, he had no fear of God before his eyes.

Now if nothing has happened to you and you have a sense of invincibility, look at Ecclesiastes 8:11-13.

The Preacher says “Because the sentence against an evil work is not executed speedily, therefore the heart of the sons of men is fully set in them to do evil. Though a sinner does evil a hundred times, and his days are prolonged, yet I surely know that it will be well with those who fear God, who fear before Him. But it will not be well with the wicked; nor will he prolong his days, which are as a shadow, because he does not fear before God.”

As long as we do not get corrected, the mind deceptively assumes that it’s permission to continue.

The sons of Eli, Hopni and Phinehas were perverted priests that took advantage of their “professional” position.

They sought to take advantage of women at every chance.

1 Samuel 2:12 “Now the sons of Eli were corrupt; they did not know the Lord.”

1 Samuel 2:22 “Now Eli was very old; and he heard everything his sons did to all Israel, and how they lay with the women who assembled at the door of the tabernacle of meeting.”

Eventually, it caught up with them.

The sons of Eli died on the battlefield against the Philistines. The ark they were carrying was taken from them. Eli, their father heard what happened and God killed him by using his weight, for he was a heavy set, portly man. The food that he ate came from his sons. As long as dad was fed, it didn’t matter what his sons did.

Eli honored his sons above honoring God (see 1 Samuel 2:29).

The ark was captured and Israel suffered as 34,000 were dead.

Phinehas’ wife gave birth and before she died during labor, she named her son Ichabod. For the glory departed.

When it comes to ministry in the NT, and even today as we are under the dispensation of grace, we really do not know what is in the heart of a minister until we watch them for a good while. It is over time that you begin to see certain traits that you will trust or distrust.

Even over time, you cannot take your eyes off of the man or woman of God because things could change over time for the better or the worse. Sadly, some ministers are supposed to get tighter in their relationship with the Lord, but because the Lord tarries, they make a move towards unholiness.

I’ve noticed that when there is a lull in the “ebb and flow” of ministry, it is very easy to drop your guard, become complacent or lackadaisical in the heart and mind. At times, when the presence of the Lord is high, we are more aware of His presence. When His presence is not as high, it is a time that we need to be more cautious and search for the Lord, and not things of the flesh.

Just because there isn’t much movement of God going on, it doesn’t mean that the Lord is not moving. Neither is it a time that we are to relax. It is at these moments that we are to be more vigilant because our adversary, like a roaring lion, seeks who he may devour (see 1 Peter 5:8-9).

As Song of Solomon 2:15 says, “Catch us the foxes, the little foxes that spoil the vines, for our vines have tender grapes.”

It is usually in very small, subtle changes that a man or woman progress away from the ways of the Lord.

If you do not catch the small changes, it’s just a matter of time before the foxes eat all the tender grapes. Small things will become too big to handle. Do not get me wrong. It doesn’t matter to what size the situation gets to. The power of God can still rescue anyone no matter where they are on this side of life. However, grace does come to an end at the end of life. Grace is useless in the grave. Hope is abandoned in hell.

There are four things that comes to mind when a minister strays from the Lord.

It is very easy to turn on ministry. Ministry is muscle memory. However, we can never fool God in relationship.

When you put ministry before relationship, your ministry will fail. Why? Because your relationship with God failed.

I like what one great man of God said and I will paraphrase it.

The well that springs up into everlasting life according to John 4:13-14 is your personal relationship with God. The rivers of living water that flows out of your belly, according to John 7:37-39, is your ministry to others by the Holy Spirit.

When you are not living out of your well, neither can the rivers of living water flow out of your ministry to help others.

A person could minister and seem anointed but in the life of a perverted pastor, he is all dried up. There is no water for him or herself.

Like demon spirits, they are walking in dry places.

Here are the four things.

Elitism– the attitude or behavior of a person or group who regard themselves as belonging to an elite:

Empowerment– give (someone or themselves) the authority or power to do something:
Entitlement– the fact of having a right to something:
Expediency– the quality of being convenient and practical despite possibly being improper or immoral; convenience:
These things is the foundation of pride and arrogance.
You believe you are all that and a bag of stale potato chips.
You believe that you are the most powerful person in your church.
You believe that you are sexually entitled to every woman that walks through the church doors.
You believe that you are above the Word of God and the law.
This is what is going on in the mind of a perverted pastor, in addition to the lust of the flesh that is in their hearts.