Autopsy Report Released Regarding The Untimely Death Of Pastor Zachery Tims

Apparently, it’s official.

Pastor Zachery Tims autopsy report confirms a mixture of cocaine and heroine in the system and declared his death as accidental. 

According to Wikipedia “cocaine acts as a stimulant, whereas heroin/morphine acts as a depressant. Co-administration is meant to provide an intense rush of euphoria with a high that is supposed to combine the effects of both drugs, while hoping to reduce the negative effects, such as anxiety, hypertension, palpitations and other common side effects of stimulants and sedation/drowsiness from the depressant.”

This is commonly called “speedball or powerballing.”

This definition is in no way connected to the autopsy report detailing the cause of death regarding Pastor Zachery Tims but it serves as a common definition or depiction of what speedball and power balling is all about.

Where does this leave us?

It leaves us in the place where we last left this.

Devastated.

As Pastor DL Foster of GCMWatch shared on a FB comment, we kind of knew already.

Read this article from the Christian Post and you will see that while we understand the family is trying desperately to protect a family member, something worse has happened. No one seen this coming. However, from sources inside New Destiny, unsavory people would be seen with Pastor Tims and he was subsequently warned about them.

Apparently for a season, he did adhere to this admonishment but when you are dealing with drugs, you have your spots. With “global reach” you know where every spot is when you go to minister.

Drugs, alcohol, and sex. You know where to get a hit in each instance.

When you have people around you that can’t see the obvious signs of drug use, sexual immorality, and other non normal occurrences in people, things like this will happen.

It goes to show you that even pastors are vulnerable to be taken by the devil.

There is no doubt that before his untimely death, people were praying. Praying that the pastor would not go to places that would destroy. That God would remove people that shouldn’t be in the pastor’s life. That holiness would be his or her pursuit. How could this happen? Why did God let this happen?

God didn’t let this happen. When a man chooses to pursue a path in his recent or distant past, the will of man is to blame because decisions determines destiny. The choice a person makes will take them where they’ve intended to go.

Pastors, for the most part, are on “auto pilot.”

We know how to be spiritual at the right moment without alluding to the hidden darkness that is apparent or not. We know how to live in the shadows while in the spot light. We know how to turn on the “anointing” and leave you mesmerized that nothing is really going in a sinister fashion in our lives. We know how to go into a meeting and preach people to the rafters and live in the dungeon.

We know how to walk in bondage and act hypocritically as free indeed. We slip off the silver bracelets before we preach and return to these handcuffs when we’re done.

We know how to wear our suits with prison clothes underneath.

We know how to praise God and party at night.

In plain view, we know how to act godly while being filled with demonic thoughts.

We know how to raise our hands and use our hands to touch a woman other than our wives, or masturbate.

With our eyes on God, we know how to sneak a peek to lustfully look at a man or woman, or both.

The shadow lives of preachers is more pronounced than one thinks because we all know what to do in every situation. We know how to look healed while deeply hurt. We know when to smile and mask the frown in our aching hearts. We know how to make it look like we have it all together, spin every plate in the room, but in us they crash when we get away from the pulpit.

These things may not be true for the late Dr. Tims. But underneath all of our showmanship, we are humans that love sin more than we love God. While we try to live holy, sin is present with us. While we try to teach people not to fall into the traps of sin, we fall in them ourselves. We want to look people in the eye and persuade them that we are on the mountain top.

Yet, we are really living in the valley of sin and death.

This is not true for every preacher. There are those that came from the grips of death and are living for the Lord. Their living matches their preaching. There are preachers that have found a way to defeat the demons within his or her flesh. Yes, there are those that are on top of their game after living defeated lives as a preacher. They’ve finally put it all together to avoid hypocrisy so that the gospel would not be accused of being a false gospel, promising deliverance, but coming up short.

The lesson learned is to keep your pastor in prayer. When you get that hint that something is not right about your pastor, pray even more intensely. Get a prayer group going to pray that any thing that isn’t right would be exposed. That the demons on assignment would be disrupted and annulled. That God would send friends to the pastor that would speak into his or her life. That God would spare the congregation of another needless death of a man or woman of God.

Not to pray and act is negligence of the highest order.

This issue will not rest, but it brings a sense of at least knowing definitively the way demons attack and sadly, sometimes become successful in destroying men and women of God.

http://www.christianpost.com/news/pastor-zachery-tims-died-from-cocaine-heroine-mixture-says-nyc-medical-examiners-office-111176/

Why Do I Keep Falling Into Sexual Sins? Am I Hopeless?

You’ve been there, time and time again. Wondering if you will ever get to the place where you will make a stand against answering the call to fulfill the lusts of your mind and flesh.

You find yourself watching women, watching men, or touching yourself. Or you hook up with that sister. You hook up with that brother.

You said that you would cut ties, or that you would never cross lines.

All for naught.

Each fall weighs heavily on your mind and you have reached the place of hopelessness.

I’ve been there. Millions of men have been there. Millions of women too.

Masturbation, sight and mental adultery, and porn was a very difficult habit to break in my life. It took a Word from the Lord at the time the Lord blessed me with a tremendous deliverance to get me to quit.

I learned that just because something is difficult it doesn’t mean that it can’t be broken.

The power of sin was broken on the cross, on the body of Jesus. But the human will to accept that fact and apply that fact to my mind and body proved more difficult to incorporate. A “what’s the use” mentality, and other notions, fueled my perverted passion to satisfy myself.

Put aside for a moment “trigger mechanisms, medicinal properties, pharmaceutical and endocrine chemical dependency adventures, love and esteem needs.”

All these things are great identifying points where sexual immorality is permitted, but the root cause of all sin is pleasure.

If sin weren’t pleasurable, you wouldn’t even consider doing it. But when we look at how the Lord is affected by what we do, we will either suppress how the Lord feels in pursuit of pleasure apart from God or we defy the Lord on the level of Zimri and Cozbi.

Too often, we look at the breach in the barrier and stand there, doubting if anything could be done to consider challenging what is in front of us. Christ made that breach so we could escape but we linger because to walk away after experiencing false pleasure after false pleasure is enough to look back……..like Lot’s wife.

When habits of the mind and body are established repetitively, to undo the training, one must find “grace to help in time of need.”

Your only chance is to completely surrender in total obedience to the grace of God.

There is a song called “Total Praise” by Richard Smallwood. I wish someone would create a song called Total Obedience.

These days, praise and worship songs of our times that exalts the name of the Lord are very popular, as they should be.

But equally important is the heart condition, before, during, and after the song is sung.

Anyway…..

The grace of God is not pleasant. Grace demands complete severance from the utensils of sin. Jesus called it…“cut it off…”

In Setting Captives Free, the course “Way To Purity” by Mike Cleveland, he called it, “radical amputation.”

That stuck with me. There are varying degrees of where men are with the grace of deliverance necessary to stay free.

What makes deliverance sticks for some is knowing that you are accountable to other men. This is very scary and prohibitive of men because men do not like it when other men stick their noses in their sexual business. We have no problem talking about male sexual conquest but to talk repentantly about sex……..no way.

That’s part of the secrecy of Secret Sexual Sins.

Secrecy is the breeding ground of sexual sins.

Reminds me of a man that was in a fatal car accident on the FDR in Manhattan. He was wealthy and married. With children. They found out that he was seeing a mistress for a few years because that’s where he was either headed or going to.

Secrecy is the breeding ground of sexual sins.

It’s the same with a very popular football player. Steve “Air” McNair. Father of three and married. His mistress shot him five times and committed suicide after Steve dumped her. Steve found another mistress and that was the tipping point for her. She had nothing to lose, was in financial troubles, and decided to end it all.

Secrecy is the breeding ground of sexual sins.

Reminds me of Jim Bakker, sleeping with a church secretary before being convicted of fraud. Jimmy Swaggart going to a hotel room to masturbate to a stripper. Both married with children. Reminds me of Pastor Henry Lyons who used National Baptist Convention money to pay his mistress to keep quiet and live a lavish lifestyle. The wife of Henry Lyons burned the house down, literally. The mistress died in prison and Henry Lyons spent time in jail.

Secrecy is the breeding ground of sexual sins.

Chances are, each one of these men have deep secret lives of porn and masturbation. Look at the late Dr. Tims. Where did you think he got the idea of hooking up with an exotic dancer. Look no further than the Internet and porn sites.

Some of you may be thinking that bring up these sins is unjustified.

Quite the contrary.

Put my name there and I am justified.

My secret life mirrors every man that has ever watched porn and masturbated in secrecy.

Very few articles or interviews will reveal the real hidden secret life of men and identify the root cause of scandals.

Masturbation and porn in the life of powerful men.

That’s why men run from the Lord. They never come to church because they do not want to be accountable. If they do show up in church, forget about talking about what is deeply hidden in the hearts and minds of men.

It’s not that accountability would have saved these men because the person being held accountable must submit. You can’t check what is in the heart if the heart refuses to show up. That’s where the problem is.

When a man refuses to submit to measurable, confrontational, compassionate accountability, he can never be trusted.

But on the other hand, such accountability, depending upon who is doing the accounting, must be firm but fair. Not manipulative or coercive. Confrontation is like two pugilists and when one doesn’t want to be pushed, it is important to recognize that and know when to back off.

Accountability is never man assuming a God position.

Paul said this in Galatians 6:1……

“Brethren, if a man is overtaken in any trespass, you who are spiritual restore such a one in the spirit of gentleness, considering yourself lest you also be tempted.”

It’s learning how to help a person through a difficult moment of trials and temptation to help him get to a place of sustained victory. Then you have to let the Lord help him with grace to stand on their own. You can’t hold your son’s hand all your life because sooner or later, your time on earth will end. But what you instill within them must suffice and then you have to commit their life into the hands of a Faithful Creator.

It’s like being a dentist in a shark tank.

For some men, they cannot touch the Internet. The trap is set. It’s a “one thing leads to another” system.

When a woman is pictured with cleavage and legs, men click the image to see more. And then it leads to other places on the Internet all the way to free porn.

Yes, I’ve been there.

In my audio blog on Secret Sexual Sins on BlogTalkRadio.com, (here is the link blogtalkradio.com/prevailingword1) I shared a testimony that I downloaded so much Internet porn that when you click on one site, a cascade of images would rain on the computer.

So much so that my laptop couldn’t handle the downloads and froze the computer. I had to shut the laptop down and restart it all over again because the images were coming too fast for the memory to handle.

There are other men that cannot turn their eyes away from women. In the store, the mall, the street, driving the car, church, work, subway, and on the bus. As soon as you see them, the mind goes into “check him or her out mode.”

It’s a search and be destroyed mission.

While at a conference with preachers, here comes this young looking girl and in fitted jeans too. So my eyes went in another direction to avoid lusting and I observed where their eyes went.

Lust mode.

Why do I keep falling for the same thing, you are asking? It’s because we fail to realize that every part of us belongs to the Lord. God created all of our faculties and through the Word, we have an obligation to obey the Word. To stop the fall, we must obey the Word of God, without thought or question.

We must refuse to accept hopelessness and use it as an excuse to continue to fail.

We must identify what leads us from one place to anther and then make a Job 31:1 commitment with our eyes. A Matthew 5:28-30 commitment to not commit sight adultery. A 1 Corinthians 9:27 commitment to discipline and subdue the body, to literally beat our bodies into submission. A 1 Peter 5:9 and James 4:7-8 commitment to submit to God, resist the devil, drawn near to God and God drawing near to us, and cleansing our hands.

Ladies, you can reapply this or transpose this as you see fit for your sexual accountability group.

The first rule of accountability is to man up and own up.

The second rule of accountability is to obey the Word.

The third rule of accountability is never be proud of your accomplishments because you can fall at any moment.

The fourth rule of accountability is to please only one Person, the Lord.

The fifth rule of accountability is to maintain constant contact with a group of men you feel safe to trust with the secrets of your life.

Like Peter said….“if you do these things and abound, you will never fall…”

Finally, Sister Selena Mosley of Equipped For Change Ministries was challenged by an individual. This person stated that Sister Selena wasn’t delivered because she talked about homosexuality so much.

Well, the man in the tombs, who was possessed with an unclean spirit, was delivered by the Lord, the man spent time with Jesus and wanted to stay with Jesus. But the Lord told him to go and tell what great things the Lord has done for him and has had compassion on him.

Telling others about how great a deliverance the Lord gave us is what we are supposed to do. In fact, rarely do people fall when they chronicle and regularly speak of their deliverance.

Sometimes, when people do not talk about their deliverance, it’s part of their Secret Sexual Sins kind of living. I do not believe that people should be proud about “their” deliverance in terms of wearing it like a combat badge of honor. We don’t need fake heroes.

But on the other hand, others are looking for a testimony that is real and authentic. A genuine deliverance that give a person that is struggling, some hope that the grace of God does, in fact, work.

Sisters Selena Mosley, Janet Boynes, Kiana Kiwi-Dennis, Denise Jones,
Charlene E Hios,
Costina Sheppard, Charlene Cothran, and all the other wonderful ladies in the Lord whom God has genuinely set free, keep telling your story.

Someone is listening.

The Tims Toxicology Report: Family Seeks Court Seal

According to CharismaNews, the family of the late Dr. Zachary Tims is seeking a court order to seal the results of the toxicological report. It is important to understand that this is not “unusual” according to a Jan Garavaglia, chief medical examiner in Florida.

As in the Eddie Long case not long ago, he used a tactic to seal the details of his case by settling out of court. The kids that were alleged to have been sexually assaulted will write a book detailing what took place. Eddie Long is looking to get a repayment of 1 million dollars if they do.

The drama continues and the church is faced with another embarrassing episode of the “train wreck” in Georgia.

In both cases, it appears that image protection is more important than the truth. However, we must also conclude that in America, the laws and options that are available are being used to cover many sins. There is no dispute about that.

Then again, perhaps there is nothing to protect.

It leaves many to believe that something is going on and we do not need to know every detail.

Where does this leave inquiring minds?

It leaves us in the realm of speculation.

It leads us to speculate a conclusion that perhaps, reputation is more important to cover than to expose sin. Chemical dependence is a sin but it also reveals that a person is attempting to “escape” reality and or use drugs, alcohol, or sex as “medicinal properties” to heal deep seated wounds that only God could heal.

It leads us to believe, based on preponderance (more likely than not), that the “white powered substance” was a controlled substance that significantly contributed to the cause of death. Without the confirmation of the report, it leaves only speculation.

In other words, we will continue to guess until it is released.

There are many in the Body of Christ that do not agree with releasing the report because if you release the report, exposing the sins of a leader only underscores one fact.

There are many sins in the Body that people would like to keep covered.

That’s why Ephesians 5:8-14 is there. Not to expose for exposure’s sake but to help people recover themselves from the snare of the enemy according to James 5:19-20.

It leads us to conclude that when the next scandal hits your town, your church, and pastor, you will exercise the one option that work so well over the years.

The cover option to save an image and keep the people guessing. Seal it forever or keep it sealed until the year 2100 so that every person that may know something about it is dead.

Why are we afraid to let the truth out?

Why are we so afraid to let the people know what happened?

NOYB

None of your business is the rule.

Nothing wrong with that.

I can understand that but sooner or later, we will see or read about another pastor and the similarities will arise. We will compare it to the last incident and come to the same conclusions.

Pastoral addiction is real in the church. We are doing something to escape, make us feel good, or heal deep seated wounds that only God could heal.

Why didn’t they share the video feed of Pastor Tims home going service, yet 5000 people were there to mourn him? Why pull the YouTube of certain segments of his home going service? I believe that a family has a right to mourn privately and not make a spectacle of things.

But when it comes to the facts surrounding the sudden death of a well known pastor, is the church this secretive?

Is it a matter of national security to protect certain people that may be involved in covert operations that would put a relational strain on foreign governments and undermine political agendas?

Are we turning into the way the Soviet Union hide information about its leaders until there is no way to contain what truly happened?

Are we afraid that people in NDCC would walk away? Because when people walk, money goes with them.

It doesn’t appear that an exodus took place. In fact, it appears that they are more stable than many would believe to be. Time will tell, but for now, it appears that they are holding up as best as possible under the circumstances, unless I am wrong.

Many will say that we do not understand. This is our pastor and church, and this is the way we have chosen to deal with the situation. Please let us alone. However, by now, they know that this will not go away.

Why?

Unanswered questions.

Already, many in New Birth have walked away because of the failed standard of a church and preacher. While New Destiny is not experiencing a second wave of a scandal because the pastor died, it would have been devastating if they knew that their pastor had a drug problem while in the pulpit.

Or they did know. At least those closest to the pastor may or may not have known because they didn’t say anything.

It would be good if they would come out and tell us on the record that according to their knowledge, they’ve never seen their pastor under the influence. It would be good if they would state on the record, if they haven’t doesn’t so already, to state that Pastor Tims lived according to the Word of God.

If it is on the record, then we have the option to respect it or delve deeper until there is satisfaction.

Is this what they are trying to hide?

This is not gossip or hear say?

There are many pastors in America right now that preach in our pulpits that are drug, alcohol, and sex addicts. Molesters, rapists, and predators too. Adulterers, adulteresses, fornicators, thieves, liars. Yes, this is nothing new. It is the state of things in our churches today.

Pastors living double lives.

We will not have definitive proof that this is the case with Dr. Tims. We will only speculate until conclusive facts are willingly and unapologetically laid before us.

There is no doubt about Dr. Tims’ love for God and the people he loved to preach to and shepherd, however, the pressure of pushing may have pushed him away into eternity.

We are not talking about pushing drugs into his system, but pushing (the pressure to perform) to do ministry to obscure the pains of ministry within.

There are pastors that are living exemplary lives. They love the Lord with all their heart. They love their families and they love the people that they minister to every week. It’s not all bad out there but it must get better where it needs to get better. And our outspoken, prominent TV leaders need to lead by example and not go the route of covering up sin in the leadership.

Just stop it.

It doesn’t look good.

For once, be a man or a woman of honor and integrity.

You will be respected more by standing for the truth in courage than for avoiding the truth in fear of losing your reputation.

Notice the ministry of the Lord Jesus. Philippians chapter 2. and verse 7 says, “but made Himself of no reputation, taking the form of a bondservant, and coming in the likeness of men.” When you come looking not to make a reputation of yourself, that speaks volumes. There are too many ministers where their “reputation” precedes them. Unsavory reputations.

Don’t wait to be pressured to answer some very basic questions about what you really believe only to run back into your Pastor’s Study to repent for not standing for the truth.

Courage, not cowardice, is what we need from our prominent TV leaders.

See the movie Courageous and you will either change or live the status quo.

Leaders, prominent or not, are expected to live and uphold the standard of the Word of God.

We work for one person, the Head of the Church, the Lord Jesus Christ.

He expects us to walk in integrity, live by example, and tell the truth regardless of how much it will hurt people (see John chapter 6 and Matthew chapter 23).

Do not misunderstand me. The family has every right to pursue every legal option to protect their image. We shouldn’t be upset at them or try to take it out on them during the time they are mourning. We should not be blogging out contempt of their decision.

We already know the past facts.

It is now time to learn from this and help the next pastor that is going down the same path. It is time to pray for our pastors that are under attack. We know that the devil has a long hit list.

Your pastor may be next.

Perhaps, you already know that your pastor is using drugs, is an alcoholic, or a sex addict. It’s time to deal with this situation head on and not be afraid of losing face. Our reputation before the world is not what we should worry about. Our relationship with Jesus and how we represent Him in truth is a paramount concern. How we go about helping our leaders avoid the sin traps of the devil is an equivalent concern.

Church, it’s time to uncover, expose, and recover so we can avoid the next scandal and death of a pastor.

Pastor Zachary Tims: The Autopsy Report

by Fred C. Rochester, Pastor. Copyright 2011. All Rights Reserved.

In anticipation of the autopsy report of the late Dr. Zachary Tims, it is important that we focus on the fact that sometimes autopsies are inconclusive. Even after the toxicological tests returns, we may or may not know what really caused his death.

I am aware that the police through the media put out the “white powdery substance” found in his pocket. Most police patrol units and CSU (Crime Scene Units) have a kit to test for cocaine and heroin on the scene.

So we already know that the police may already know the actual substance. The million dollar question is that if the police already know what it is, did it enter his body and cause his death?

That’s what the toxicological tests may or may not conclude.

There’s always that possibility that it will be ruled a natural death.

Even if a certain “substance” is found on or near the decedent, any substance that is known to cause death may or may not be the true cause behind a person’s death.

What is so troubling is that no one seem to put the pieces together before his death.

No one traced the “needle trail.”

Or, perhaps, the trail was hidden so well that even if there were certain tell tale signs, we would ignore or intentionally suppress them. I find that when people do intentionally suppress the truth, they do it to cover a leader.

No one wants to uncover and disclose the truth of the trail because it would uncover another trail to places where certain people (high level, prominent, outspoken church leadership) do not want you to go.

What is the “needle trail?”

Again, it uncovers the dark side of the pulpit that we all know is going on.

Case in point.

According to Gay Christian Movement Watch (www.gcmwatch.com), COGIC Superintendent Joseph E. Hogan Jr. was recently selected to be Bishop over Central Georgia. He has a child out of wedlock and was arrested for being a deadbeat father.

In a separate incident, a well loved person in church leadership passed away. He was known in his church in the south to smoke, drink, and sleep with women. The pastor eulogized him as a person who did much good. “Let his good overshadow his bad.” Yet, he was divorced, had a child out of wedlock, and his girlfriends showed up at his home going service.

Sadly, pathetically, and hypocritically, we have no problem speaking well of people in ministerial leadership that are known to have committed Secret Sexual Sins at home goings but we have a problem not preaching about the true Biblical fact that fornicators, homosexuals (catamites), and adulterers will not inherit the kingdom of God.

Hear no evil. See no evil. Speak no evil.

Only hypocrites judge.

Only those that expose sin (because the truth need to be told), do so to warn the rest of the hearers and seers that this is what happens when sin is left unchecked and undiscovered in the hearts and minds of believers and powerful leadership.

And even babes in Christ and the laity that know their God and their Bible will never call sin a “train wreck” to covertly cover the sins of a fallen minister.

The secret is only a secret when few know about it or are told about it.

The power of a secret is safe where few know about it or the few that do know do not talk about it.

Collaborators and conspirators do not want the truth to come back to them because it will reveal a bigger picture that something sinister of epic proportions is too much for the church to bear.

So they fight so hard to speak the good over a leader while intentionally overlooking what is bad at the same time. It’s never commendable to cover sin. It makes such a cover, a cover up. Sin can never be covered. There is only one thing to do about sin that God agrees with. Sin can only be washed away by the blood of Jesus. Covering sin or speaking good over a sinful leader is the way of co-conspirators. Cover a leader’s sin and my sin will not be discovered.

The anointing on a person’s life or their persona has a way of hiding even obvious signs of trouble.

No one really seen Dr. Tims’ death coming even after the fact of death. Sometimes certain people will act a certain way that may be key behavioral factors that are not ordinary.

Sometimes this is not a good way to determine that something is wrong because it is a fact that people will snap on a moment’s notice and go crazy. Then we are left trying to figure out what happened that led to an unthinkable incident.

Again, for preachers in particular, the “persona” and the “anointing” can cover dark happenings in a person’s true character.

It’s called “Undercover Christian Brother.”

The story of a book is never read or understood on the cover.

The story is always found inside the book.

Speculation is a failed attempt to understand the true meaning of what took place or to get into the mind of the deceased. After all is said and done, we conclude that we will never get at the heart of the matter. Speculation, therefore, becomes “hit or miss.”

More miss than hit.

It’s very easy to blame the dead on a number of things.

Which is why we must always recognize the obvious signs of pastors that are not so obvious to believers and even close associates.

Bishop Jakes tapped into something that was very telling that Dr. Tims was “unhappy.”

Folks, as much as you want to believe that even when a pastor has a lot of people, it is not all peaches and cream. But just because a person or a pastor is unhappy, it doesn’t mean that we now understand all that is going on in an unhappy person.

Behind the scenes, there are many pastors that are unhappy with life and ministry.

This is not a reflection on Pastor Tims. I know this to be true in almost every pastor and it is a reflection of my own life and ministry.

Early in my ministry, I began to experience “the ministerial mountain top blues.”

You’ve preached the best messages and people receive. Then you go home or back to your hotel.

It is there that the mind sometimes goes crazy.

No matter how much Word a preacher has in him, there is always that moment when the devil or even your own mind retreats into a place of seclusion and second guess the message.

Or the message was received but it wasn’t good enough.

Or it was good enough but you are still looking for something.

That something we are all looking for is accomplishment, affirmation, and acceptance. No one wants to be rejected. Sadly, we male preachers, or males as a whole are afraid of rejection and failure. Behind all of our strength we are susceptible to these two vulnerabilities that drive us to commit sin to achieve apart from God.

There is also the ferocious intensity to minister in such a way that completely obscure our past moral failures, or current involvement in Secret Sexual Sins that there is no flow of the Holy Spirit. Just a forceful push that looks like an out of control freight train going downgrade heading towards a turnout (curve), with no brakes.

Instead of resting in the Lord, it’s fast paced preaching as if you are running from something or someone. In essence, you are running from God.

The majority of ministers of the gospel will never tell you that what drives them is their ability to perform before people. It is a “form of worship” that we are not permitted to have but some of us search for it anyway. Even after a scandal, there is that one thing called “performance” that drives us to give us a false awareness that we are truly successful.

Sexuality is the highest form of physical pleasure. The use of drugs has been known to heighten sexual experiences as part of heightening the false sense of escaping reality. Candidly, false intimacy and the aftermath of male or female orgasm gives a person seeking for some measure of success, a deceptive means of achieving accomplishment.

Because of “fulfilling the desires of the flesh and mind” and “the pleasures of this world,” it is very difficult for many to go “cold turkey” on self gratification, commonly called masturbation.

Victory over masturbation is achieved by employing “moment by moment” sanctification which is the same discipline used by Jesus in Hebrews 4:14-16.

It’s called the “Sexual Discipline of Jesus.”

Just because the Bible is silent about masturbation, it doesn’t mean that you have permission to engage in the practice. Silence is never permission.

We pastors refuse to admit that we masturbate nor do we even discuss the reasons why we masturbate because it is embarrassing. In our secret and hidden lives, this is what males and females do to relieve sexual tension when we are alone to fulfill the lusts of our flesh and mind. And as a secondary reason, to acquiring some measure of self worth, accomplishment, self love, acceptance, and affirmation.

We violate Scripture by measuring ourselves by ourselves. It’s part of pride and arrogance, and it always lead to elitism, entitlement, empowerment, and expediency.

Even when it is assumed that we are actually helping people, sometimes we pastors can be so full of ourselves (egomaniac) that we believe the hype about ourselves. Like Paul, we always need to judge ourselves and we need that “thorn in the flesh” so we would not go beyond the limits of our measure.

Even behind our praise of God in front of people, if we are not careful, we will try to steal God’s praise in broad daylight.

As Paul said, “Knowledge puffs up.”

And when the hurts and wounds of a pastor is mixed with our emotions, coupled with great pulpit performances, and a desire to be received or worshipped, we get into trouble. As I have said before, humbleness of mind and humility will keep us from places of humiliation.

This is where pastors must recognize that this is the moment to find God for you and not for others. It is the moment to find a close friend to share your heart with and lay what’s in your heart bare.

Coming down from the mountain is the most vulnerable moment in a preacher’s life because of the lack of complete satisfaction.

When you are constantly pouring out of your life and ministry, the expending and dispensing of the Word and the anointing out of your life is for the people. It is not for you. It is there that you seek to put something back to fill the void.

If you are not getting ministry for “you,” it is very easy to fall into the traps of loneliness.

After most Sundays, I look to channel surfing to preaching that will feed me and minister to me. I particularly look to Fred Brothers. His ministry really has been found to be the thing that I need from the Lord at precisely the right moment. As Fred Price said, not everyone can minister to you. And you will not receive from everybody.

That’s good preaching.

Hotels are very lonely places unless your family is with you.

According to www.XXXChurch.com, the average time spent on porn is 12 minutes.

For the single and divorced pastors, it is a very lonely world. For single and divorced pastors, to be isolated from family is another spot of vulnerability. Without loving family support, it makes ministry all the more troubling and dangerous.

Too many “options.” Too many “distractions.” Too many “opportunities.”

A couple of years ago, a friend of mine, Pastor Roger Jamison ran into Bishop Eugene Tanniehill. “The Bishop,” a former death row inmate, was released from Angola Prison and we went down to Louisiana to visit with the Bishop.

This was just after I was delivered from porn and masturbation. I was in a hotel room away from my associates.

By myself.

I can’t tell you the number of times the flesh started to rise and the mind battles in that hotel room. But to fall back into Secret Sexual Sins of 13 years of porn, such a turn back from a great deliverance would be the greatest hypocrisy ever.

On the day that inmates were expecting visitation, there were many women that we waiting to get in. All these temptations surround a man every where. Preachers are not exempt.

But God was good. He kept me from turning on the television. He kept me from filing the “images” of the day in my mind to fuel the fire of “urges and impulses.” I knew what was waiting for me if I surfed the channels. I prayed, stayed in the Word, and called my wife regularly to ensure that I stay pure before God.

I’ve determined that loneliness is a “trigger mechanism” to commit Secret Sexual Sins.

If you fail to identify your trip wires and trigger mechanisms, you will never end the cycle of sexual addiction. You will continue the “ritual” and fulfill false intimacy or act out sexually to attain unattainable satisfaction. Seeking unattainable healing through false sexual satisfaction is never acquired or accomplished, but these drugs are released into the blood stream.

Testosterone, adrenaline, vasopressin, and dopamine.

I was acting as my own “pharmacist.”

When false intimacy by self sex takes place, the addict demands these chemicals, and it is what makes sexual addictions become “medicinal properties” to vainly attempt to heal deep seated wounds in the soul that only God could heal and make whole.

Males seek to masturbate because these feelings govern his refusal to approach God, to search after Him for true healing and intimacy. We want to do it ourselves for two reasons.

1. Sin’s pleasure.

2. Medicinal or pharmaceutical properties for self healing.

This is our disturbed way of autonomy.

That’s why self sex or masturbation leaves a bad feeling (violating the conscience) because you are violating the “one flesh” principle, thus, sinning against your own body, and against God. Sex in marriage between male and female is designed to be shared. Masturbation is selfishness.

When sex is done according to the “one flesh” principle, between husband and wife, these same chemicals produce positive effects of love and bonding to secure the marriage relationship. The conscience is clear.

Loneliness can only be satisfied in Jesus. Him alone!

Loneliness

Pastor Jamison shared this Scripture with me at our Come Clean Conference in 2009.

“A man who isolates himself seeks his own desire; he rages against all wise judgment.” Proverbs 18:1

The Amplified Bible says it this way,

“He who willfully separates and estranges himself [from God and man] seeks his own desire and pretext to break out against all wise and sound judgment.”

More pastors run into trouble when there isn’t a close person to talk to about the “ups” and “downs” of ministry.

The prideful pastors will always find a way to break out against all wise and sound judgment. We walk the streets or drive in our cars lusting for flesh. We go back and fulfill our fantasies through false intimacy.

Then, after having our fill of false sex, we look to take it to the next level. We look for another live body on the level one of sexual addiction.

Not realizing that deep inside, there is a longing for true intimacy with God.

I was watching “Faith Of Our Fathers” or “Fathers Of The Faith.” They had a panel of 5 or 6 “senior” pastors sharing their secrets of 40 plus years of ministry apiece.

One pastor lamented over the fact that he wished that early in his ministry that he had a close pastor friend to bounce ideas off or to just share in his personal struggles in his life and ministry.

A pastor could have many people, many friends, but few close friends that is able to speak into his or her life. More often than not, many pastors close the doors to such personal ministry because, for men, we tend to believe we could fix our own lives.

We also want to keep our personal sins personal so we could stay in ministry. We try to “heal our own wounds” in sin when the Savior is waiting to help us. Even pastors need Jesus.

We know what is wrong with us. Even though we may know what is wrong with us, we do not know how to fix ourselves. We think we do, but we fool ourselves into thinking that there is nothing wrong. We pretend all is well, yet, we cry silent tears within.

Inside the heart of most pastors are wounds. Self inflicted or sheep inflicted that never get attended to. We bleed while we preach. We bleed while we minister to others. We bleed while we laugh. We bleed while we sin. We bleed while people watch.

Our false intimacy becomes a place of failed attempts to stop the bleeding. We refuse to believe our own preaching and find the Healer through safe associations with other pastors. We can’t share, or we refuse to open up our hearts because we have this false understanding that we are all right.

We can’t let the people see and know how much we hurt.

Sin deceived us into thinking that sexual ritualistic activities is the only way to bring healing to ourselves.

No lie could be more deceptive than this.

How are you going to heal yourself by hurting yourself?

And then when it is detected that somebody can see our hurt, we refuse their prayers, their comfort, their counsel, their ministry to us. We run from the very thing that God sends to help us heal.

It’s like asking a heart surgeon to do heart surgery on himself, without anesthesia.

If you are a lonely pastor, it is time to furl the superman cape.

It is time to find a close friend to share your heart with. Life and ministry is not designed for the pastor that goes it alone. You’ve sat in that office crying to God for companionship. You’ve gone home looking for someone to help you understand the process of the “ministerial mountain top blues.” Only to fall into various Secret Sexual Sins or other common sins to heal a desperately lonely heart.

It takes courage to find a friend in Jesus that understands what you are going through.

Pick up the phone and call someone. Or when that friend calls to see how you are doing, do not do what I have done. Never return that call. Leave it on voice mail. Or worse. Cut them off forever.

Physician, it’s time to get healed.

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The Aftermath of Pastor Zachary Tims, Why The Mighty Have Fallen?

by Fred C. Rochester, Pastor. Copyright 2011. All Rights Reserved.

The body of Pastor Zachary Tims was laid to rest. Such a sad thing. So young in life. Death has taken away the mighty at the prime of his youth.

It is not enough to say, “How the mighty have fallen.” We need to know and understand “Why The Mighty Have Fallen.” Saul didn’t fall from battle victorious. He fell from battle because of a life of disobedience to the Lord. Leaders must be obedient. As imperfect as we are, leaders must be obedient to the Lord and His Word.

As I was studying Solomon, there was a statement about him that stood out. The Scripture said that Solomon followed in the footsteps of his father, David. Except he burned incense on the high place (see 1 Kings 3:3).

It is clear that sometimes burning incense on the high place was unto the Lord, however, if you study the high place, it usually has a dual purpose. It is dedicated to sacrifice to the Lord but when the leadership of Israel operated in rebellion, the high place would be used to sacrifice to idols.

When I see the word “except,” that is a clear indication that a door is left opened that will eventually destroy a man if they do not cease and desist.

Many pastors must understand that if we leave backdoors wide open and do not close them, eventually the enemy will have a way into our lives to destroy it. “Give no place to the devil” is applicable for pastors too.

As we continue to mourn over the passing of Pastor Zachary Tims, it is important to reflect on the fact that pastors are the most targeted ministry gift in the fivefold ministry.

“I will strike the Shepherd, and the sheep of the flock will be scattered,” Matthew 26:31.

Of course, it is a prophetic Word about what the Lord God will do to the Lord Jesus from Zechariah 13:7-9, but the implications is the same.

If the sins of a leader remain unchecked, this verse of Scripture is not going to cease. The Lord desires to clean, prune, refine, and transform our lives, even in the midst of tragedy.

However, from a demonic standpoint, there is no question that the devil is looking to destroy every pastor. Or, let the pastor destroy himself. One of the things that we have to look very hard at is that it’s not just the personal sins of a pastor we are to pay attention to.

It is the very fact that the devil will either come at a pastor and directly destroy him or if there is unchecked sins in the life of a pastor, it makes the job of the devil very easy to destroy him.

“How the mighty have fallen” was part of a tribute from David when he was lamenting over the loss of Saul. David paid a tribute to the first king of Israel. However, Saul repeatedly disobeyed God.

Saul’s continued disobedience is How The Mighty Did Fall.

The outcome of the battle against the Philistines would have been different if Saul had obeyed God.

Anytime a leader is destroyed, the sheep is left in a vulnerable place. It all depends upon the heart of the people after a tragedy that will determine whether they will survive it, overcome it, or never rise again, and be scattered.

The ministry of a pastor is very complicated and complex. The dangers for a pastor range from bouts with loneliness to abrasive, pompous displays of pride and arrogance.

Pride and arrogance is not a reflection on Pastor Tims, but it is a reflection on my own life as a pastor.

It’s time to uncover the scandal before the scandal.

My life is the object lesson of any pastor that still desires Secret Sexual Sins. It is time to expose what we pastors do or have done in secret.

As I have preached before, the people only see a small part of the life of most ministers. That small life is the part that carries a high impact on the people. From the pulpit, he or she is able to communicate the Scriptures in the most dynamic way possible.

The goal is to change as many lives as possible so that they reflect the very life of Jesus from new birth to death. While a pastor is powerless to change a life, pastors certainly can impart into a life and, by the Holy Spirit, shape that person to reflect the very life of Jesus (see Romans 8:29-30).

This is what discipleship is all about.

Disciples are not just called upon to be taught. Disciples are called upon to take what is taught and implement it throughout the course of life. It is not enough to declare that you are a follower of Christ. Your life must now reflect your statement. Otherwise, you are operating under false pretenses.

With pastors, when it comes to living before God’s people, one statement comes to mind. One pastor told me as my wife and I were preparing to resume pastoral ministry is that, “You must have the smell of sheep on you.”

Translation?

A pastor’s ministry is among the people of God. We are called upon to minister to the people as a shepherd ministers to His sheep.

This requires diligence, transparency, honest, integrity, holiness, and brokenness or humility.

Lives that reflect humility or humbleness of mind will always avoid humiliation.

This is important because when you are ministering to His people, if your life lack these basic ministerial ingredients, it makes living a life free of “contaminating influences” a serious problem for those in ministry (see James 3:1).

Getting back to “the most targeted ministry gift,” we are called upon, not just to minister the Word of God, we pastors are called upon to minister out of our lives. The devil hates any minister but in particular, the pastor that constantly points people to the rightly divided Word of truth and ultimately, towards Jesus.

Sometimes, the Lord calls us into ministry with busted, sin filled, broken lives. And we wonder “Why are you mindful of us? Why do you take the time to visit with us?” (see Psalm 8:4).

Usually, it’s because we should have found a way to overcome in our busted, sin filled, broken lives. He takes us and uses us as He pleases. Provided we do what He said in His Word and be faithful to Him.

God didn’t call us to try to be faithful. He called us to be faithful. He didn’t call us to try to live holy. He called us to be holy. He didn’t call us to try to have life and have it more abundantly. He called us to have life and have it more abundantly.

I’ll say it again. It’s not a reflection upon any pastor. It’s a reflection on my life as a pastor.

There is no question that pastors must live above the fray. We are called upon to live holy, honest, full of integrity kind of lives before God and the people. The Lord and the God of the Bible doesn’t give any exceptions. That’s why we must deal with issues that we may not want to deal with.

For many pastors living sinful lives, no matter how good our preaching game is, it is difficult to preach to people to live according to the word of God when we are not living the Word of God we preached for ourselves.

Such was my case.

Let’s try to understand the scandal behind the scandal. Not from Pastor Tims life, but from mine.

The worst sin a pastor could commit is the sin of hypocrisy.

Secret Sexual Sins is a scandal of hypocrisy.

WHY THE MIGHTY HAVE FALLEN?

1. Pride and Arrogance

When a pastor fails to walk in humility, the Lord has a way of dealing with you.

When I was in my life of Secret Sexual Sins, I was full of pride and arrogance.

Porn and self gratification, commonly called masturbation, was a mainstay in my life. One of the things that I knew was the Word of God but how to live the Word was a different story.

My personality and ability to project my persona was key to cloaking known sin in my life.

1 John 2:15-17 says, “Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and pride of life is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world will pass away and the lust thereof but he that does the will of the Father abides forever.”

In these three things, “the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life,” was my secret world of sexual sins.

Lust or the desire for that which is forbidden, drove my every move. My eyes would be in search mode to “file” flesh in my mind to gratify my flesh at night. The pride part was my ability to assume that I would never get caught because I would overuse and abuse 1 John 1:8-9.

However, the Lord would be the Only One able to look past my eyes and know what was in my heart and mind. There are many pastors that is unwilling to deal with this area because it is a revelation that need not be exposed.

Why doesn’t a pastor want his Secret Sexual Sins to be exposed?

One person once said on Focus On The Family, “If God exposes it, I have no job. If I expose it, I keep my job.”

Committing sin makes it seem fun up to a point, but we do not understand that when we sin, we break the heart of the Father, and we must be disciplined by Him. Sin hurts God like a child that run away from home.

Besides, that’s what the prodigal son was partly about.

Freedom to sin or freedom to be “human” by running away from home.

When we are dealing with our own personal hurts, pains, wounds, loses, and successes, sexuality is the greatest “pick me” up or rewarder known to man.

Dr. Archibald Hart, who wrote the book, “The Sexual Man” said, (paraphrasing) “No matter what kind of success or failure you have in life, sex is used as a rewarder.”

Why?

There are four basic chemicals that take place in men. Testosterone, adrenaline, vasopressin, and dopamine. The male sex drive is a very powerful drive.

The mighty have fallen because there is a lack of control of these hormones.

When failure or low times after a “mountain top” event is experienced in the life of a pastor, he will seek sex to reward himself.

Such was the case in my life. When the reward chemical “dopamine” enters the blood stream, it is very difficult to abstain unless you operate in the discipline of Romans chapter 6 and 1 Corinthians 9:27. To abstain from sexual immorality and live a sanctified life according to 1 Thessalonians 4:1-5, you must understand what is going on with you. You must identify your “trigger mechanisms” or events that start you down the path to fulfill the need for satisfaction.

The “urges and impulses” of the body will not stop. They are there as part of your physical make up. However, we must learn the “sexual discipline” of Jesus according to Hebrews 4:12-16.

Sin is sin and there is no excuse for it because of what the Lord has done for us on the cross.

Along with this, when a pastor reaches a level of success, he feels he need to reward himself apart from Christ. And even though he may be married, it doesn’t make a difference. If he is single or divorced, it’s a different ballgame.

The temptations are even greater when you are single or divorced. The reward of sex and getting that dopamine fix will drive a man to get that reward over and over again. And in some cases, escalate from fantasy into reality very rapidly.

Patrick Carnes’ Cycle of Sexual Addiction is a classic explanation that powerfully depicts the sexual addict.

1. Thoughts and Fantasy.

2. Ritual.

3. Acting Out.

4. Remorse.

How do you know that you are a sex addict?

When you cannot stop or manage your sex life. When you cannot stop masturbating or thinking about sex. When the urge is permitted to exceed your ability to say no and keep your hands from touching yourself sexually.

Pride and arrogance will bring a man to the 4 “E’s” of pride and arrogance.

1. Elitism

2. Entitlement

3. Empowerment

4. Expediency

Briefly, when a person feels that they have made it in life, there is a sense of accomplishment apart from humility called “elitism.”

Elitism takes you to “entitlement.” You believe that you are entitled to certain things, including sex for yourself, whether it is self sex, prostitution, or affairs. That’s why certain promiscuous pastors have many women in the same church to choose from.

Or, they go to different speaking engagements and make arrangements. Such as the saying in the Navy that I served in 30 years ago. “A woman in every port,” a woman in every church is not that far off.

Entitlement takes you to “empowerment.” You go after your pursuit of your reward and you will not be denied. Mind you, while all of these things are going on, there is only one thing that is driving these “E’s.” The male sex drive. Testosterone, adrenaline, vasopressin, and dopamine.

Finally, empowerment takes you to “expediency.” You will violate every ethical or principle you lived by to satisfy yourself.

Why is this important?

When you are dealing with the church culture, there is a “seamless connection.”

The “seamless connection” is drug and alcohol dependency, and sexual immorality.

The use of drugs or alcohol heightens the escape experience. Drugs and alcohol is a part of the escape from reality. Sex is used to feel some measure of intimacy.

Even in the church, there are people that come to church high or they are coming down from that high. Just go back to the days of the jazz world in Harlem, Broadway, and lower Manhattan, and you will understand some of the history of the drug, alcohol, and sex culture.

They were interconnected to provide a false sense of peace and escape. The volatile activities of the pressures of life that pervade the soul; coupled with demonic suggestions to search for places where these destructive tools were available, is more prevalent than we are willing to discuss.

Many will try to sweep it all under rug in the church because we do not want to expose the reality that these things are happening more often than we are willing to admit. Partly because we want to protect the image of our leaders and the people that we minister to.

This is what is not supposed to happen. If we are the children of the King, we need to come to the King of kings to get healed, delivered, and set free. To hide the true dealings of what happens in the church is only setting our selves up to see another leader or believer’s life destroyed. Concealing what we do as sin only makes us a co-conspirator.

“Touch not mine anointed” and “Do not judge” is code for, “Do not judge my leader because if you expose his or her sins, it will force me to deal with my sins.”

These tools reveal a known fact that people that fail or succeed are hurting within and will look to commit sin to find rest. It is silly because the God of the universe is the only One that knows all about us and can fix anyone (see Matthew 11:25-30).

But we do not believe our own preaching.

So we retreat to the secret place of sin instead of the secret place of the Lord to heal our wounds in sin ourselves. All behind closed doors so that our facade is preserved.

This is the hidden world of pastors, music ministers, praise and worship leaders, and male dancers.

The desire to feel affirmed, loved, accepted, and accomplished.

Hence, male orgasm is the one way to accomplish something positive in life.

How stupid and deceived I was.

The devil has lied to us and we have fed these lies with our desire to heal ourselves.

This is the hidden world of Christian believers in almost every local church, denomination and non denomination.

We are intentionally blind to MOAB, the Mother Of All Battles called sexual immorality.

The mighty will continue to fall until we pull back the veil and uncover the secret world behind every scandal.

If we don’t, we have no one else to blame, and we will see another tragedy unfold before our eyes.

We will continue this subject in the next blog.

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The Passing Of Pastor Zachary Tims, How The Mighty Have Fallen

by Fred C. Rochester. How The Mighty Have Fallen, Copyright 2011. All Rights Reserved.

In the wake of the untimely passing of Pastor Zachary Tims in my former home city of New York, we see a progressive pattern.

While facts surrounding his death are being determined, we must not let speculation and second guessing rule the issues. We must be disciplined enough to let the facts be revealed. We must learn that as a Body of believers in Jesus, we can do more good by walking in love and speaking the truth in love.

This lost is profound, partly because of the history behind the man. New Destiny lost a pastor that, under the circumstances, tried to lead a lot of people.

There are many believers at New Destiny that loved him, that followed him, and his teaching. According to certain sources, it appeared that he had a major positive impact on the young generation of his time.

With Pastor Tims, it is a clear indication that we need not hang dirty laundry out to dry. We must, however, live with what is factual and present the Word of His grace in truth and love.

At this time, we must let the family mourn.

After a reasonable time of mourning, they must select a new pastor and receive from God, His eternal plans, purpose, and ordained destiny for New Destiny.

A tragedy occurred that will impact his family and members of New Destiny for some time to come but earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot heal.

There is no question in my mind that sooner or later, if we do not get to the root causes of open doors of demonic forces invading the lives of pastoral leadership, we will never stop the onslaught of destruction that seek to destroy more pastors.

It does matter that it’s a mega church because the magnitude of the loss is incredible. We are beginning to see an alarming trend that become clear warning signals that pastors of any sized church must take heed.

At a later date, we will discuss and address these issues.

For now, our love, condolences, and thoughts goes the Tims’ family and the New Destiny family.

We know and graciously expect that God will comfort those that mourn and give them sustaining strength to bear up under this tragedy with love and God’s everlasting grace.

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